Here we are again...

Okay so here I am once again ending a cycle. I ovulated late so I am guessing AF won't show for around another week, even if I am not pg. Today is CD 28 and I am 8 DPO. Usually I have at least a 13 or 14 day LP. So this cycle should end up being about 33 days or so. I admit my chart is very relaxed this time, which is abnormal. I mean my post ovulation temps are sticking at either 97.7 ot 97.8. And I know my BBT isn't malfunctioning because I just put new batteries in it less than a month ago. Having a different looking chart than normal makes me hopeful...probably more so than I should be. Even though my temps aren't high...they have a enough of a shift to indicate I O'd on CD 20. Have a look see if you haven't seen my chart..



So I am once again sitting here wondering if AF will show or if I will finally see two lines on a HPT. But don't worry I won't test until I am at least 15 DPO. So that means not before May 31st. Which our 3rd Wedding Anniversary is June 1st. So if AF hasn't shown by then, I will be torn on whether to test so I can say I got my BFP on our anniversary...or whether to not so if it is BFN I won't put a damper on our day. Decisions, Decisions. At any rate, I hate this part of my cycle...I am always watching for the slightest hint of AF...I almost drive myself crazy!

On the plus side...with the warm weather I have been keeping busy and active. Playing lots of badmiton and volleyball. Plus I am out enjoying watching him play on his men's softball team. I keep score for them...and let me tell you...there wasn't much score to keep last week. They got stomped on. But the two teams they played are the top two teams. We are talking teams that have had basically the same guys on them for several years, and have one championships. The guys have fun none-the-less and that is what matters. But I really hope they have a better night tonight...

Well I guess I better get back to work and try to quit thinking about AF and whether she will show this time or not...

~Melody

Hooray for the nice weather!

I am so excited that the weather has been just about the perfect temperature the last few days. I like the weather where it is warm enough for shorts but still cool enough you don't die in pants! And that has been how the weather is here. We have been playing volleyball and badminton the few nights...and tonight is our first softball game! Well it's my husband's first softball game. He is on a men's YMCA league. I am the scorekeeper or "Den Mom" as I have been titled! It's another one of those beautiful days today so the game should be perfect. I can't wait to get out of the office and to the ball field!

On the baby front I am kind of wore out. It is really starting to depress me to see all these people having babies like it is easy or something. It's just frustrating to know how very hard we try to time everything right and how great of parents we would make (not trying to be conceited though) and how loving our home is...but we can't get pg. And there are babies and children that are unwanted and unloved...and not taken care all over the place born to parents that truly don't know what a gift they have. And it is so hard to adopt. You have to have the home study and truthfully quite a bit of money just for the paper work and such. You would think they would want you to keep your money to help take care of the child!

I know I have so much in my life to be thankful for. And I really am. I just feel like I am missing a piece of my life by not being a mom. If I could just have one baby I would be happy. I have room in my heart and life for many...but would be happy if I had just one. As much as I would like the baby to be biologically mine and his together...I would be happy to adopt.

Well enough feeling sorry for myself. Back to concentrating on the beautiful weather waiting outside for me...only 3 hours left to go before I am heading home and then on to the ball field!

~Melody

Where does the time go??

Wow! I can't believe it has been so long since I had time to get an entry in here. Last week was another rough week. I woke up Sunday (the 1st) with a couple itchy bites on my arm...and my afternoon the start of hives was apparent. I can't believe it...just six weeks before was when I had my last outbreak. I went to the doctor on Monday and got a shot and some prescriptions. Tuesday I was fine...no itchiness or redness at all! But then Wednesday morning I wokeup with big red blotches that almost burned more than itched. Last time I had that was the day I ended up in the ER. So I called the doctor and they had me come back in for two more shots. By the end of Wednesday I was almost clear again. But Thursday morning I wokeup covered and itchy once again. Well having already missed all day Monday of work and only working two hours on Wednesday (once they give me the shot it knocks me out) I decided I couldn't miss again, so I went to work that way. I worked all day and then went home to rest. Friday I was fine and have been every since. So weird!

My FIL had his brain tumor removed on Tuesday. So far he is doing extremely well. They are fairly sure they got it all. And his left side is not paralyzed like they thought it may be after the surgery. They have actually had him up on his feet taking a few steps (with help). They are hoping to get him into some extensive therapy to get him back walking and doing most things on his own again. He hasn't been able to walk (without any help) for several months now. We are feeling very good about his recovery so far. It is a huge relief.

I really need to get motivated to get my house organized. I know once I get organized I will have a lot more ambition to get unfinished craft projects and such done. Not to mention I still need to get my bathrooms painted. Hopefully the weather will stay nice (no rain or extreme heat please) so I can open the house up and get going! Anyone want to come keep my company while I work? I always work so much better when I am not home alone! How weird is that? Well I guess I better get back to my work so I can say I accomplished something today. I am guessing I won't be getting anything done at home tonight...we are already heading into town to help friends with their new deck.

~Melody