Why start a blog?

Well I guess the main reason I started this blog is because I have to have someone to just type and not really care what anyone else thinks of what I say. No worries of offending someone or saying something stupid. YKWIM? I mean if you don't like it you don't have to continue to read it, right?

Okay so here's what's up. We have been TTC for 2 years now without any success what so ever! UGH! And it is so frustrating. I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) and he has issues with his little swimmers. We had an IUI done last month without success naturally. My period showing up on Christmas morning really sucked! And every since I haven't felt myself. I have cried a lot lately...and most of the time I am not even sure why. And talk about things really ticking me off....if I am not crying I am annoyed or pissed off. Okay I am sure some of it is from all the meds (hormones) that I am taking...but a lot of it just has to be me doing it to myself.

So here we are starting my second round of meds in hopes to do another IUI this time. I almost didn't want to do it again. I mean I got my hopes up enough each month...but after the IUI they were even higher. So I fell even farther when it failed. I find myself asking myself how much more of this I can really take? I obviously don't want to give up on being a mom, but some of the TTC stuff is stressful and just plain torture.

Well anyways I started this blog to help me get all that I am thinking in my head out. So I am sure some posts won't be TTC related...but I am guessing a large amount of them will be...so be patient with me.