Well it's a Monday...

And a blah one at that. Nothing exciting to report really. It's overcast...and I am sure it is humid if I step outside. But I think I will stay in the comforts of the A/C here at work. Boy wouldn't I have loved to stay home in bed this morning. I could as we speak either be still in bed cuddling with Donny (I know...it's 1 pm...but he works nights so he will definitely still be in bed) or I could be up enjoying a cribbage tournament. Either way much more relaxing than working. Which I really need to get back to since lunch is ending.

AF still hasn't found her way to my house. She is taking her sweet time since I am now I believe 12 days late. I could be ovulating again any day soon, had she shown on time. But no that would be easy. I feel bad in wishing the BFN was wrong (on 7/1) because I haven't been doing good things in case it was. I haven't been taking my vitamins, eating right, sleeping enough, and have drank several times since the BFN. But none the less I find myself wishing I was pregnant. Well on the sad, depressing note...I think I best get back to work if I want to get out of here at 5. Which Donny will be a little upset if I am not since he has a ballgame at 6:30 and it takes me 35 minutes to get home...and another 15 to the ball field.

Hope everyone else is avoiding the Monday blahs...

~Melody

Do you ever just not feel good mentally?

Right now if someone where to ask me how I am feeling? I would say not well at all. But I wouldn't have any physical illness to tell them about. Physically I am fine...no aches or pains. But mentally I wish I was in bed sleeping the day away. I can't even explain exactly why. I just know that mostly I want to cry. Going to the message boards makes me want to cry...thinking about the BFN I got on Friday makes me want to cry...thinking of Donny being at work tonight makes me want to cry...pretty much everything makes me want to cry. And what doesn't make me want to cry...just makes me mad. I am so not a people person today. Or for the last few days actually. I just don't feel right. Maybe it's just because of the fact that my period still hasn't started...so maybe I have a million hormones surging through me. But whatever the reason I wish it would go away. I hate feeling this way. Geez just typing this makes me want to cry.

Our 4th of July trip to Des Moines was okay. I will write about it later. I am just not in the mood right now...

~Melody