Frustration...

I am so very frustrated with my cycle right now. I am on CD 30 and from my temp chart I didn't O. I think there is a good possibility I did, but not from looking at my chart. I am still seriously wondering how accurate my BBT is right now. I took my temp with it this morning and it said 96.7 . But when I took my temp with my ear thermometer it said 98.8 in my right ear and 99.1 in my left! I have heard they aren't very accurate. But I did read an online article that said it is but that your left ear seems to be more accurate. Well I temped in both and the left was higher! So who knows. But it is very frustrating. I don't want to test and see a BFN but if AF doesn't come that is the only way to get Provera in order to get AF here! Plus I don't want to test but I don't want to have a 60 day cycle either...so when do I give up and test? Did I mention how very much I hate testing?!?!?! I am so frustrated it is making me tired. I seriously need a nap...

~Melody